Friday, August 31, 2012
I've been bullied
It has happened to most of us.
We have been the victim of bullying one way or another.
I thought this kind of behavior would end after my middle school/high school days and until this week that has been the case.
Saturday was one of the best days of my life so far.
Covered in color, laughing non-stop. It was awesome.
Then I came home and read a comment from one of my VEDA vlogs:
"Now I see why you're still fat....I was like how are you still big and you run so much? Now I see why! If you'd clean up your diet and lose the fat, your arms and legs wouldnt be so fat! Also, your face would clear up too, fro yo isnt the answer!"
I sat there and stared at that comment for awhile.
I texted a picture of it to 4 people, Eddie-Alison-Lauren-Mom
All of them had the same reaction that I did, "How could someone be SO mean?"
Alison brought up a good point as we were texting back and forth, she said " Unfortunately it comes with the territory of putting yourself online."
BUT that should not be the case.
I should not be worrying about screen names attacking my weight, OR my body.
This morning I woke up to another comment on my VEDA vlog from last night :
"You're a chunky something lol look at those thunder thighs and big ol arms......upper body work will prob do u good! Damn girl I didn't know you were that big!"
This time I laughed.
How could someone who knows NOTHING about me say such hurtful things.
YouTube has become one of the most common places for rude people to congregate and attack.
With websites like GOMI and Trash a Guru people are being picked apart on a daily basis for no other reason then putting themselves online.
That is bullshit.
Why would someone think it is okay to make up a screen name, hide behind a computer and bully others?
I think about all of the things I don't like about my body on a daily basis.
I started a blog to CHANGE those things and document my progress.
If you don't like me or my videos, stop reading/watching.
I do not need some fake account pointing out my flaws or exposing my insecurities.
We do that enough to ourselves.
It's sad that this is the world we live in.
Fortunately enough I am stronger then those words. I know better then to let them affect me in a negative way, even though it may not sound that way right now.
What worries me is those who are not as strong.
The teenagers who are bullied every single day for being themselves.
It's wrong and it HAS to stop.
If you have been bullied on the Internet or otherwise, please know you are not alone.
You are better then those words.
Better then those people.
And I am behind you 100%.
Don't ever hesitate to email/tweet/facebook me, I will listen :)
I love you all!