Wednesday, August 17, 2011

What I'm Loving Wednesday-Warning there's a lot of self-love ahead

    For the first time in almost 4 years I have an entire week of from work with nothing planned or scheduled. It is the best feeling and I am taking full advantage of it. Monday morning bright and early was my yearly physical ( which I've already blogged about so I won't go through all of the details again here) and I left feeling so proud of how much I have grown and changed. At my last physical in January 2010 I was in a very dark place full of negativity, self-loathing and anxiety. I was not willing to accept how heavy I had become and how depressed I really was. Fast forward to August 2011 where my own doctor didn't even recognize me when he came into the room. He complimented me on all the weight I've lost and said how proud he was of me. Let me tell you that is an incredible feeling, and I let myself cherish that feeling for the rest of the day.

   Tuesday was my scheduled rest day but since I am off from work I wanted to take advantage of that time. I spent most of my morning puttering around the house, basically finding every excuse not to lace up my sneakers and hop onto the treadmill. By 1:30 I had run out of reasons so I got dressed, put on MTV hits and started running at 5.5. I ran  a mile in 11 minutes, a personal best, and it felt great. I can't believe I had spent 5 hours trying to talk myself out of a quick, easy 11 minute run. There are 24 hours in a day, there is NO reason you cannot take 20 minutes out of your day to do something healthy for yourself. TWENTY MINUTES. That's all I am asking!!

 That brings me to today. I had kickboxing this morning and Power X tonight. 2 amazing workouts and 1207 calories burned.Here is something I never thought I would say, I had fun  during class tonight. My body was pushed to the limit, as usual, but I was able to keep my HR at a manageable level for the first time. I finished every :45 second interval and jogged to and from every station. I am still on a high of how great I felt through the entire class. The workout was just as hard but my body and I were finally on the same page, working together instead of working against each other.

     Ahh I love myself this week. I feel great. I am seeing small changes and overall I am just in a very positive place mentally. All of my hard work is coming together and I cannot wait to see what tomorrow brings.

This is me before Power X last week, I meant to take an after shot but was so exhausted I forgot.