I live in a small town on Long Island. A town where you cannot go anywhere without seeing someone you know. This was one of the reasons I did not want to join the gym in the village..I didn't want anyone who knew me to see me attempt to work out, I was so embarrassed by how out of shape and overweight I had become since I graduated high school in 2004.
However Fitness Incentive has been voted the best gym on all of Long Island for the past 4 years (this year included) They offer over 150 classes a week! They open at 5 am and close at 10, basically they don't allow you to have an excuse NOT to work out. I decided I would purchase a 3 month membership in April of 2010 to see if I would actually stick to a workout regime. Not only did I doubt myself but everyone around me who knew my exercising history did.
My sister always raved about one of the teachers classes at Fitness Incentive, how great she was and how the workout was unlike anything else. I was hesitant because she's in incredible shape and I clearly was not. However one Sunday morning I mustered up the confidence to give it a try. I hid in the back of the packed out class hoping I wouldn't see anyone I knew as I attempted to Kickbox for my first time. As soon as the music started I KNEW I was in trouble... It was so fast! How was I ever going to be able to keep up with these people? I thought about walking out right then and there...there was no way I could make it through 60 minutes of jumping jacks, lunges, punches, etc
But I did.
I modified a lot of it, but it was my first workout in years! I kept telling myself if you can get through this it will only get better. You have to do this, you cannot give up. I remember my sister turning around a few times to see if I was still there and probably to make sure I was still alive. I think knowing she was there supporting me was also a reason I kept going, I almost felt that I would let her down if I left and quit.
After that first class I went up to the desk and extended my 3 month membership to a year. I have consistently attended all of her classes and have become stronger than I ever thought possible. I never thought I would come to a point in my life where I would make decisions based on my workouts. I don't go out and drink Friday or Saturday nights because I want to get up and be in that gym at 8 am literally kicking ass. I leave there feeling amazing(and exhausted). Not everyone understands how I can skip out on a night of boozin it up at the local bar just so I can go to the gym, but they don't need too. This is about ME and no one else.
After about 6 months of working out consistently and building relationships with different people in the gym the instructor included she asked me to write my story for the gyms newsletter. I couldn't understand why anyone would want to read about me or my story (funny as I write a blog about me AND my story) but with some coaxing I agreed. I was printed in the March 2011 F.I.T to print newsletter and received an overwhelming response from people I knew and even more from those I didn't! It was a great feeling to know people genuinely enjoyed what I wrote and it was another thing I had pushed myself to do that I thought I couldn't.
"You gain strength,courage,and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face....Do the thing you think you cannot do."