Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Moments I want to remember...


Last night I sat on the floor and watched you run around for 45 minutes before bed. You were playing with three items: a small tub of Vaseline, your little stuffed pig (Kevin Bacon) and my underwear that you pulled out of the clean basket. You carried all three items back and forth between your chair and your table, putting them down, saying "bye bye" before picking them back up again and running over to your next destination. I recorded most of it just so I would forever have that memory. Maybe you will see it, maybe you won't. But I want to say that I am so happy you are in our life, you have taught me to slow down and appreciate the innocence of time. 

You will never be as little as you were yesterday and as much as I love watching you grow up, I find myself torn between loving and hating each new day. 



I sat there as you ran all over the house trying to catch the dogs while holding those three items and I just cried. Not because I was sad, but because I can't believe we are already in this place where you can run, jump, put together words to form requests, climb up the slide and even more that doesn't come to mind.

I never want to forget these little moments, I want them to become lifelong memories for us to keep for the rest of time. 

Some days are easier than others but every day is worth it and that's all because of you.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Meal Plan: Week of 3/26




On Friday's I map out my meal plan for the coming week. As long as I plan and prep for Sunday-Friday I find that I am able to stay on track. Saturdays are always up in the air because we tend to be out and about or have plans with family and friends so I just opt to make the best choices wherever we are but I don't put too much stress on myself.


When approaching my meal plan I try to pick 2-4 recipes to alternate for lunch and dinner throughout the 6 days, it doesn't always happen but it's my goal. 


Above you will see only M-F but I started this plan today. The recipes I am alternating this week are:

TIU Banana PB Oats

(My own recipe from 2012!)
*Red lentil pasta with chicken sausage and roasted broccoli, I just made this up but can share if you're interested.
*Snack boxes, inspired by Starbucks protein bistro box. Here are a few great ideas from Cooking Light to make your own: Copycat Starbucks bistro box

Off to meal prep!
Whats on your menu this week?


Wednesday, March 15, 2017

My Happy Space




Do you have a room, spot, or corner of your home that is your favorite?
I didn't until this past weekend.


(this was from the day we moved in)

When we first bought our home last March there was a spot in the kitchen that would make the perfect coffee nook but the builders didn't put an outlet there so it became a "throw everything that doesn't have a place" spot.


For my birthday Eddie knew how much I wanted this spot to be my happy space so he spent 4 days working on the wiring to get everything just right so I could have my nook.
He even included a USB outlet which is too exciting and now I want to change every single one in our house to match.


You know you're old when you get excited about outlets



On Sunday, Molly and I went to Home Goods and Marshalls to find the perfect additions to my new nook and I have to say, I love it even more than I originally anticipated. Even if it's still a work in progress.


What is your favorite space in your home?


Thursday, March 9, 2017

Finding myself again through BodyBack


I have been trying to find the words to write about my experience with the BodyBack program for the last two weeks but it's hard to sum up something that has changed you, inside and out, in a single blog post. 

But I am going to try.

Left: September, before session 1 Right: March, End of second session 2
I wish I had taken my shirt off this round to really see the changes.

Moving twice in less than two years, to two different states can really affect someone. Throw in birthing a child for the first time then buying your first home two months later and you realize very quickly how easily it is to lose yourself.


Finding the time to juggle being a full time mom, wife, employee, daughter, sister, friend, etc was extremely difficult for me, especially during the first six months of Molly's life. I never lost the baby weight, in fact, I was one of the lucky ones that gained even more weight during postpartum. I was working out but not giving my body the proper nutrition it needed, and having been on a similar journey before I knew what I needed to do but wasn't doing it.
 Nothing was "clicking" for me like it had in the past. 



Until I started my second BodyBack session. 
I was fortunate enough to work with the same coach and have many of the same friends with me that I had been with during my first go around, but this time was different, this time I was ready. I got out of my own way and allowed the help from my coaches, friends and the program itself to do its work. I lost over 13lbs in this last session (based on my home scale we've had for years) and 5 inches, but I gained myself back in ways I didn't think were possible. I had the drive to workout hard and consistently again, to fuel my body with clean foods and most importantly, open up. 

Left: January, before session 2 Right: March, end of session 2. 
Same pants (different color, and same tank)

I've always been one to shut down my emotions but the group of women I spent the last 8 weeks with found a way to make me feel safe enough to allow my vulnerable side show and really share my ups & downs with them. We laughed, cried, and sweat twice a week together and while we lost so much in weight and inches, we gained a lot more in knowledge and friendships.


End of session two

I have 10 lbs left before being at pre-Molly weight and 25lbs to be back where I was before leaving Long Island. BodyBack has reminded me that I am worth the work and more importantly, that I CAN and WILL do this.

With that being said, I start my third round of BodyBack on March 21st and I couldn't be more excited to see where I am in 8 weeks!