Tuesday, September 20, 2016


Years ago when I first began my weight loss journey I sat on the floor of my parents basement with scissors, magazines and a big white poster board to create a vision board. This would be my crutch when I felt weak and wanted to give up, my sanity when I felt a little crazy getting up at 4:30 am to workout for two hours and my motivation when I needed that extra push. At the time all I wanted was to stay focused enough to lose the weight but I didn't have my "WHY."  Losing weight is never a selfish act but at that point in my life all I cared about was looking better and being smaller. This time around everything is different.
I have just as much weight to lose as I did four years ago but my "WHY" is not for me but for Molly.

I want to be my happiest, healthiest self so I can be the best mom I know I can be. There are days it's harder to eat healthy or squeeze in a workout and I definitely find more excuses NOT to do those things now than I ever did before but I am trying and that is all I can do.

When we were asked to create our vision boards for the Body Back program I knew I wanted to include Molly as my motivation but also an after photo from when I lost 50 lbs back in 2012. In this picture I am the happiest I have EVER been with my body because I worked my ass off (literally) to get it. And although it is going to be a lot of hard work and regiment on my part I will get back to that place because not only do I want it, I deserve it.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Clean Eating Meal Plan: Week of 9/18/16

It has been a long time since I have meal prepped, but knowing I have a crazy week ahead it will make staying on track with my current diet plan a no-brainer.  Friday night while watching Big Brother I scoured through my cook books and Pinterest to come up with this weeks meals:

Breakfasts: Tone It Up protein pancakes with almond or peanut butter and fruit


(not pictured, I haven't made them yet!)

Dinners: Turkey spinach meatballs and zucchini noodles
( I made a recipe from my Body Back recipe book but wanted to share something similar)


RX Bars 


 Chia pudding for dessert
(I'll instagram a picture once they're assembled)

Typically, I will choose two recipes for lunch and two for dinner to keep things somewhat interesting throughout the week but with having a conference on Thursday and heading out of town on Friday I kept things as simple as possible.

The true challenge will be meal planning, shopping and prepping when we get back into town on Sunday for the following week but I have time to worry about that. If you are interested in seeing my weekly meal plans throughout my eight week body back program please let me know!

What is on your menu this week?

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Reality Check

No one told me (or they did and I ignored them) that postpartum weight loss was going to be challenging. I had this notion in my head that I would lose all of the baby weight effortlessly by nursing and cleaning up my diet. However, nursing never happened and here I am one day from being 9 months postpartum and I haven't lost a single pound.

(picture taken before Stroller Strides class last Thursday)

I could rattle off a million excuses but the truth is I put myself last and it shows. 
Last night I took the first step towards getting my "Body Back" by joining a program with the same name through Fit4Mom Annapolis. For the next 8 weeks I am focusing on eating clean and using my 21 Day Fix containers/meal plan to help me on this journey in addition to working out 5-6x a week with fellow "body backers."

We had our assessment class last night and for me it was depressing. I had an extremely difficult weekend in my personal life and considered staying home but instead, I put things aside as best I could and pushed through. We went through a series of moves, some timed and others until failure, to give ourselves a sense of where we were physically. 
I was shocked at my results. 
I am nowhere near the shape I was 3-4 years ago and I spent a lot of the class mentally struggling with that fact. However, I want to document my second weight loss journey here with all of you so the best way to do that is to share my results from last nights assessments.

Plank: Held for :53 (until failure)
Push-Ups(on toes): 4 (during the timeframe given to us)
Sit-Ups(perfect form): 20 (during the timeframe given to us)
Squats: 58 (during the timeframe given to us)
Bicep Curls: 34 (during the timeframe given to us)
Side Plank: Held for :46 (until failure)
Mile Run: DNF

As you can see, I have a ton of work to do. The DNF on the run was due to re-injuring my surgery knee on Sunday. I pushed myself to try and complete it but in the end only made it through 3 of 5 laps which really left me feeling angry and defeated.
HOWEVER, this is my starting point and in 8 weeks I will have improved on every single one of those numbers, because I've done it before and I can do it again.

Thursday, September 8, 2016

Picking Up The Pieces

I found myself missing my corner of the internet far more than I had ever expected to.  Since my last post in February so much has changed in my life. 

We bought a home.
We moved to another new state.
Eddie got a new car.
Molly has learned three words and is crawling all over the place.
I found my fitness home. 

The last part is what really made me miss writing. As many of you know, when we left Long Island I lost my direction in many areas of my life. I struggled living in Virginia and I was never happy. I tried to be, I wanted to be, but I couldn't find myself there. 

Since moving to Maryland everything has slowly fallen into place again, I even find myself genuinely happy living here, most of the time. I absolutely miss Long Island and the life I had there for 28 years but I am so excited about our new chapter, in Maryland as a family.

That being said, I finally feel ready to post and share my life with all of you again, if you're still there that is.

My plan is to share my latest weight loss journey (which there is a lot of work to be done) in addition to posts about being a mother, homeowner and things happening in my everyday life.

For those of you who have stuck by me these last few years, thank you.
For those of you who are new to my little corner of the internet, welcome.

You'll be seeing a lot more of me very soon.