Monday, March 2, 2015

Nothing Changes If Nothing Changes

This Friday is my 29th birthday. 
My last year in my 20s. 

I can't deny that it has me a little freaked out because 30 has always sounded "old" to me. I know, I know it's not old but it is a scary number in my head. 

I'd be lying to myself and to you if I said I wasn't feel less than stellar about myself right now. Since surgery last June (which sounds so long ago now) and moving in September I have gained a few pounds...12 to be exact, and It's the first time I have gained weight and kept it on since starting my weight loss journey 5 years ago.

In addition to surgery/moving I had a terrible experience with a doctor here back in December that has been in the back of my mind ever since. The short story was he told me he was unhappy with my weight and asked me if I had ever considered diet pills, without going over any of mine or my family's history.

All of these things have been weighing (no pun intended) on me these last few months and yet I haven't done anything about it. I am still working out just as much and just as hard as I was in NY, but my workouts are different: I spin, box, and take Tabata 2x a week VS high cardio kickboxing 4x a week in addition to lifting. 
I am still finding myself here in VA and it's proven to be more of a challenge then I had originally anticipated.

Two weeks ago Eddie bought a scale. I have always said I hate scales because it's very easy to become number obsessed and they are not the end all, be all of weight loss/gain. Muscle weighs more then fat but I haven't lifted heavy since November, so that number I see is fat outweighing muscle. That being said it's time for a change.

I am determined to start over and what better way then with a birthday? For starters Eddie upgraded my HRM, I've been using a Polar FT4 since 2009 and while I love it I needed something more.

I can't wait to break in my new FT7 tonight at the gym! The features aren't that different from the FT4 but I like that it measures the % of fat burn during your workouts and has the option for online tracking if I wanted to do that in the future.

This morning I woke up and bit the bullet, I bought myself the 21 Day Fix. You may remember me talking about doing this back in January but I wasn't going to buy it because " I hate diets," which I still do BUT my best friend is on her second round of the 21DF and loves it so I figured it's time for me to stop making excuses and try it. It will be here tomorrow and I am going to follow it for the most part until we leave for Jamaica next Friday, outside of celebrating my birthday this Saturday night. After our trip, all bets are off and I am going for the gold.

If you've done the 21 Day Fix, let me know your experience below!

I am determined to make 29 my best year yet.
Don't believe me just watch!


  1. Happy last year of your 20s! I just hit the 30 milestone last month, and was also freaking out. It's not as bad as I thought :) Don't worry too much about the weight gained, just go easy on yourself :) It sounds like a lot of things happened that threw you off track. You know you can get back to where you feel comfortable. And how horrible of that doctor.... diet pills?? Are you kidding me?? I can't speak to the 21 day fix as I'm more of a proponent for slow, steady and sustainable weight loss.

  2. I can't stick to diets. One thing to look out for is that you might need to add a little more food (still healthy!) if you do your intense workouts and not just the 21 day fix one. I know the eating part is pretty restricted if you work out a lot from reviews I've read and people I've talked to.

  3. I hope you are enjoying your trip to Jamaica immensely :) I have had your site in my browser ever since we spoke last week and exchanged blog URLs and really enjoyed reading about your incredibly inspirational weight loss journey. And it is just that. You are doing remarkable things, even if it doesn't always feel that way. I'm so sorry you met a doctor who said this to you :( Please know that how you feel always outweighs everything else, and I think you look stunning :) And I also think he's an a** but that's neither here nor there, LOL.

    Looking forward to hearing about your bday celebrations and your trip!